CarolineCarnivorous

Autistim mom of an almost 1 year old here. Earplugs were something I bought early on, that has saved my sanity quite a bit. I try to step away when I can to calm down, and many days I count the hours until my husband comes home from work. Yesterday I was lying on the couch for two hours and just let the baby play with me like that, I was so exhausted. I even went to bed hours earlier than normal, usually I stay up very late just to get peace and quiet and alone time to relax with my interests.

I don’t go out at all, I just tried putting baby into carriers to go get the mail, but multiple attemps, no success. Honestly can’t wait for her to start kindergarten in August, so I get a break and she gets to socialize, learn and eat great food, cause I don’t have the energy to provide good quality of all that.
Maybe after that I can start considering having another, cause right now I couldn’t handle it! But I know I’m a good mom, I’m just not perfect – nobody is. We’re all doing as best as we can, that’s all we can do.