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Right now it’s making a big family decision that seems best for our daughter. Might not be what’s best for me personally, but for our family collectively. And this is really the first big decision like that we’ve had to make. It’s terrifying but I’m trying to learn from it and feel positive about doing what we think is best for her.

This Mother’s Day is so complex. I don’t have a relationship with my own mom because she has always been emotionally manipulative and abusive but there are always emotions when people say “are you visiting your mom this weekend”? On top of that it’s the third Mother’s Day since we lost our first baby, our son, when I was six months pregnant. The baby that made me a mom. This is also the first Mother’s Day I’ll celebrate with a living child, our beautiful rainbow girl. I’m grateful and grieving all at the same time.