Ali

I made an account just to reply to you. I was you, with the same questions, concern, situation. Then finally a year or two later I decided to go for it and it took a bit longer than I thought. Now I’m on my second and final pregnancy and I wish I could have had 3-4 kids. It is a huge source of grief for me, wishing I had done this sooner. I wouldn’t look as much at your social environment, it’s very common now for people not to have any children in their mid 30s and for people with children to go into it with false expectations and seem unhappy. I would think more about yourself, who you are as a person, how you carry yourself. For me being a parent is hard but I’m not here on earth not to do hard things. Having an easy life of leisure, travel, and extra money won’t fulfill me for decades on end. To me the challenge of parenting is way less than the reward. I also like to fast forward down the line to when I’m in my 60s, 70s, 80s and later. Will I be happy I reproduced or regret it? I would much rather have more meaningful loving relationships in life and that’s essentially what having kids is about for me. Once the window passes we never get it back. I also wish I had frozen my eggs so I had more potential options. This is just my 2 cents. I send you a lot of wisdom and discernment on your journey.