edenklee

I am a mother to a 3.5 year old but have been struggling with secondary infertility for the last 2+ years. A long complicated process has led us to a failed IVF cycle and now IUI. Currently in the two week window since the procedure waiting for the blood pregnancy test. I love my daughter so much and feel incredibly guilty for longing for more. I’ve been working with a therapist and leaning into the duality of emotions (I can love my daughter and want another child; I can be overjoyed for friends getting pregnant and still feel jealous/frustrated/upset). This Mother’s Day feels particularly overwhelming and I’m wracked with guilt feeling like I’m not appreciating my family enough while in the throes of fertility treatments 🙁