Knee-deep in diapers

I had two kids after I turned 40- currently seven weeks old and two years old. I had always wanted kids provided that I was with the right partner. The right partner for me came along in my late 30s and I do regret that we didn’t have more time to ourselves before the babies came because DANG I just like him so much. To be perfectly honest, there are days when I feel bonded to my children on a cellular level, and my heart feels so full, but there are other days when I am depressed about how little agency I have over my life. To be clear I am in the trenches right now with the little ones, but you have to be prepared for forgetting up small freedoms like when to shower and use the toilet and return phone calls. I haven’t been able to return to work full-time because of the professional demands on my partners time; I don’t think I could keep it together mentally or physically if I was dividing my capabilities between my kids and my demanding career. If you do decide to become parents, make sure you establish a bedrock of consistent support to whatever extent you can afford. Set clear expectations between you and your partner about roles and responsibilities, and revisit that conversation regularly as things in your life will change.