macalcutt

I had a baby a year ago at 36. In therapy leading up to giving birth I worried a lot about how my identity would change. How my very full and fulfilling life would change when this baby arrived, but all through that I knew I felt really called to be a mom. And now that she’s been here a year I can say that all that remains true. I absolutely love being a mom and I am still struggling to accept that I can’t do all the things that I loved to do before she was born. I’m thinking about reducing my hours at work, not to spend more time with my kid but rather to maximize my time with childcare to fit more of my adult things into my days. It is very fulfilling AND very hard. I have a parter who does his share and more and we can afford full time daycare and it is hard. So all that is to say I absolutely don’t regret it but I feel more strongly now that having kids is not for everyone and that is totally ok too.