Bonjour_Hi_Sarah

Thanks for sharing – I felt the same too. I had a notebook where I was tracking my pumping and I remember writing down 6ml 2:30 am four days in a row. The 2 am feed had changed to 4 am yet I was getting up to pump… instead of sleeping.

This is so hard. A dear friend who lives across the country and I had a phone date when I was about 6 weeks postpartum. She is a Mom of 2 and was open, honest and kind with me and said ‘this is so hard’ and I probably cried for 5 minutes and then she told me to have a snack. I felt like I had to try to do everything perfect and didn’t feel like I could admit that everything felt hard. Also, if at first you don’t succeed at breastfeeding you can switch to formula, and you don’t have to spend thousands of dollars on lactation consultants, fenugreek and nipple shields if it doesn’t feel right for you. Bottles saved me from going deeper into debt and feeling like a failure.