Mostly sunshine

Maybe! Do you think you’ll regret never trying say at 50? Maybe just see what happens, being unsure is OK and normal!

It’s all an almost impossible decision bc you can’t know how it will change your life/who you will create. It an incredible gamble. BUT the payout is mind bending love, awe, inspiration (all the troupes are true). It’s hard, but clearly not impossible. People can’t stop raving about it as they complain about it.

Having kids doesn’t make logical sense (time! Expense! commitment! sacrifice!) but the beauty is the love, life fullfilment and new burst of joy over living is really worth it. If someone described having a pet dog it wouldn’t make sense either but it’s amazing for the same reasons. Also having a kid is a long game.

I couldn’t “decide” either but didn’t want to regret not making an attempt. Let biology decide! 1st kid at 38 and didn’t know if it was a good idea until he was 2 months out. 2nd at 40 and knew as soon as I birthed him it was the best choice (meaning unsure the entire pregnancy BOTH TIMES). That’s ok, pregnancy and postpartum is confusingly weird at minimum.

Good luck! Life will be enjoyable either way, just different favors.